nieuwe jaar :)

Zo...
hallo allemaal,
hier alles goed, nu ben ik here van meer lange...
dus ik moet om sinterklaas en kerstedagen te praten:
sinterklaas:
sinterklaas is een meneer uit turky wie in Madrid woont.een keer per jaar hij hier in Nederland koom en hij cadoutjes voor de kinderen brengen.Maar hij is niet allen met hem er zijn Zwarte Piet: een zwarte helper en zijn wiet paarde.
elke jaar koomt hij naar Nederland, maar alleen voor de brave kinderen.
zo je kan denken dat hij is santa klaus maar wacht wacht wacht, wat meer doet hij is een gedicht, elke kind een gedicht krijgen,waarop is geschreven over het kinder zelf:)
anders wanneer het kind is stout Sinterklaas brengt hem in Spanje en maak een pepernote van hem.
ik het vieren met mijn familie en het was geweldig, ze waren zomooi en zo liefelijk dat ik niet mis mijn echte familie zo veel:) Er was de hele familie,en ook Carine's vriendje was er, heel gezellig :)
Toen ging ik in Amsterdam voor 4 dagen met andere uitwisselingsstudenten, het was geweldig:). goed op de 24 gingen we naar de kerk, protestantse kerk, en ik had het niet verwacht,vleermuis het was heel mooi, veel nummers, en de tijd ging doorzeer snel:)
Eindelijk op 25 gingen we naar oma, was er de hele familie, Tantesen ooms en neven:) heel erg mooi en minstens lijkt meer op eenItaliaanse traditie:).op het einde nu voel ik me echt thuis, toen was ik bij A'dam delaatste dag deed ik echt mis mijn familie hier, mijn katten, mijnkamer, en de Nederlandse eten: P
op het einde nu voel ik me echt thuis, toen was ik bij A'dam delaatste dag deed ik echt mis mijn familie hier, mijn katten, mijnkamer, en de Nederlandse eten: P
Jan en Hanne zijn heel erg vriendelijk en Anique is erg cool:) Ik hou van haar, elke dag kan ik haar voelen meer als een zus, n Het is ongelooflijk, want ik heb nog nooit een had, en ik heb 'verwachten, soms de ene Overleg voor de andere, dekken we elkaar, en wekunnen begrijpen elkaar. het is verbazingwekkend!


so...
hello everyone,
everything allright here, now i'm here from longer..
so i gotta talk bout sinterklaas and xmas time:
sinterklaas:
Sint is a man who lives in turcky,once every year he comes here in Nederland and he brings presentes for the good children, and he's not alone, with him there are zwarte piet :  a black helper and a white horse.
well now you could think it's santa but wait wait wait, wht he more does is the poem!!! everychild get from him a poem on himself:)
in the other hand if a child is naughty Sint brings him in Spain and make a peppernote out of him.
well i celbrated it with my family, it was great :)they were so nice and so lovely that i didn't miss my family so much :) There ws the whole family, also Carine's boyfriend was there :)


kerstedagen:
i went to A'dam for 4 days wit others exhange students, it was awesomE :) 
on the 24 we went to the church a protestant church, it was pretty different , at first i was very glad that the walls were completely white and not those fuc**ng scaring demons painted everywhere. honestly i couldn't understend wht the priiest said at all... but they sang a lot of songs an it was very nice...and they time went by pretty fast :) than anique slept over me :)
finally on 25 we went to grandma , there was the whole family wit all the relatives :) a very big dinner, in the end of the dinner i felt i was gonna exploud :S... but i was very happy of that eventought the conversations were completely in dutch n it was pretty tiring ( grandma of course can't speek eng).and it was quite similar to italian way of celebrate xmas,  just less noise :p
to conclude now i feel really at home , when i was in a'dam the last day i was loocking for to get back, to hug my cats, to meet jan n hanne, to stay with anique, n to eat dutch food :P
jan and hanne are very very kind and anique is very cool,i love them. every day i can feel anique more as a sister than the day before, she's the sister i've never had :) sometimes the one talk for the other and sometimes we don't need to talk we already got the other...it's amazing!!!
but, cuz there's always a but :
i really miss my boyfriend, i dunno y it's happened, but now i need him so mutch, to go on and on without, without his arms around me without his kisses n his love is so hard. i feel everything right 2 times more hard, n i know it's only cuz i m not with him. idk who the fuck made those ruls but they're so bad, not to meet him make me only feel worse.
i love to be here, but still i count the days to my return, eventought i know i ll mi this awesome land so much , it's only cuz of him, coz i love him!!!




dunque...
ciao a tutti ,
tutto bene qui,ora sono qui da piu tempo...
cosi vorrei parlare di sinterklaas e delle vacanze di natale:
sinterklaas.
sinterklaas "è un uomo" che viene dalla turkia ma che vive a Madrid, ogni anno questo magnianimo tizio viene in olanda in incoglito e porta regali ai bambini.Ma non è solo, viene accompagnato da zwarte piet (il suo aiutante(Alias schiavo)nero) e da un cavallo bianco.
ogni anno dunque questo benefattore arriva in olanda, ma solo per i bambini buoni ovviamente.
chiunque potrebbe pensare: eh beh dovè dunque la differenza da babbonatale?ma aspetta aspetta aspetta, l'asso nella manica di sinterklaas è la poesia, ogni bambino rivece da lui una poesia su di lui:)
invece i bambini monelli sono presi nel sacco di sinterklaas e portati a madrid, dove verranno successivamente trasformati in peppernotes (biscotti alla cannella tipicamente natalizi olandesi)un ottimo incentivo al comportarsi bene oserei commentare.
beh io il mio sinetklaasdag(5DICEMBRE) l'ho passatocon la mia famiglia, che è stata cosi dolce e carina da non farmi sentire quasi per nulla la nosralgia di casa.tutta la famiglia era radunata, persino il ragazzo di carine :)
kerstedagen:
il 24 sera siamo andati in chiesa verso le 10, una chiesa protestante,e non me lo sarei mai aspettata ma non è stato per niente male, primo le mura erao quasi completamente bianche senza quelle terribbili e raccapriccianti raffigurazione di demoni e morte, ovviamente del sermone nn ho capito nulla, ma almeno ogni cosa che diceva era intervallata da canzoni natalizie che tutti inzieme abbiamo cantato :)
alla fine il 25 siamo andati dalla Nonna , c'era tutta a famiglia con tanto di zii e cugini :) è stato molto bene, e anche se non capivo nulla di qll ce dicevano perche la nonna non parlainglese e quindi si e parlato tutta la serata olandese, per lo meno era piu simile a un natale italiano, anche se ovviamete nn era cosi bordellara la cosa.
infine voglio dire che adesso mi sento davvero a casa qui,l'ultimo giorno che sono stata ad a'dma mi sono persino mancati i miei genitori i gatti mia sorella e addirittura le verdure e il cibo olandese :s
jan e hanne sono davvero dolcy è annik è fortissima :) è un po' come la sorella che non ho mai avuto, le voglio un sacco di bene,a volte parliamo l una al posto dell altra ci capiamo con uno sguardo, ci scambiamo i vestiti ecc... chemmostro :)
ma come purtroppo va sempre detto mi manca il mio ragazzo, non sco chi ha fatto queste maledette regole, ma l idea che non lo vedrò fino a luglio ancora mi sta ammazzando come un lento veleno, ogni giorno conto su quel contatore i fottutissimi giorni che mancano a quando finalmente ci rivedremo. andare avanti senza di lui , rende tutto piu brutto, rende un po tristi anche le cose bellissime che succedono qua, andare avanti senza i suoi abbracci, senza il suo odore , le sue carezze, e il suo amore è sempre piu difficile. che bel modo per rovinare una bellissima esperienza.
                     Baci Allee :)

14 weeks

12 weeken

idk anymore wht in my mind... i feel so alone, also if i know tht i m not i really feel sad ...
idk anymore what i belong to...
idk me myself anymore?
i m so confused, i was not so confused this morning,
sometimes it just seems tht my brain doesn't work well anymore,
n i also feel ill...
maybe this is only cuz of exams of tomorrow....
maybe not.
maybe it's my fault...
maybe not.
mijn nederlands zuigt!!!
my english sucks!!!
il mio italiano è sempre peggiore!!!
je me rappelle rien de fraçais!!!
mi espanol es terrible!!!
sta sera Jan mi ha hiesto che intenzioni ho per ilmio futuro, universita o lavoro?
n i was like: wtf idk!!!
yesterday Dav asked me y i don't play anysport, n i tryied to explain him tht it's not so common to play sport in italy, i told him tht we don't use to play any sport, n he was so surprised!!!
soms when i m here i feel a looser, they do so many things, they know so many things,they can do so many things,they have so many things...sometimes it seems me so high, n soms when i compare it to italy it seems me so weird,so unreal tht this is true, n now it's becoming normal for me, i don't think about it anymore, but when i think tht in itali this is completely different i dunno wht to think...:(
to do things u need so much here, everything is so well organized, they control everything...
we don't need so much in italy.
idk anymore wht is better....
kisses everybody

bijna 18....(almost 18, quasi 18)

zondag is mijn verjaardag :) ik ben een beetje bezorgd :S
ik ben niet zo oude!!!

2 manden

hi guys.... today it's 2 moanden since i m here:)
i m going naar Amsterdam :)
have fun :)
and good fall holiday :)

8 weeks

hi everybody ,overhere everything bout the last 2 weeks :)
week7:
mmm i don't really remember so much about the beginning of tht week, but that i met (as my english teacher suggested me) a half italian woman who works at my school :) it was pretty nice, cuz it was the 1th time i could speak italian not on the phone :) actually it was not a real italian, she had a very strong accent.. but it didn't matter, i met someone to speak italian with n this is the most important thing for me :)
that women is bilingual, a lot of people are blingual here, n it makes me think... in Italy everybody say that nowdays it's very important to know other lenguages, as it can help u to find a job,but here everybody speak at least 2 lenguages and that's quite common , this is not something special, u are supposed to know more than one lenguage n u also gotta have someting more,otherwise u don't have a lot of possibilities,and it made me a little worry bout my future....but i m still young... so this is not the time to think bout it :P
than on zaterdag 9 i went in utrecht with travel active :)
i went to the hoorn station where i had to wait for Diego ( a mexican guy), we had to take the train together... i was waiting n waiting..but he was not there, so i bought a ticket n i took the 1th train ,than i met some italian guys there, so  i introduced myself n luckly they were from Napoles too :) wht a coincidence :), so for for the 1th time i could really speak italian for few hours , it was so weird for me, i mean during these 2 months i only spoke english everyday and it was so weird i think my accent was kinda weird in the begining , but thn everything allright.it was so fucking nice!!!!
then we arrived in utrecht n i went round with them cuz i was too early, thn i went to the apponitment with the other exchange students n they were already there ...it was so awesome meeting everybody again now tht our experience is started n compare my experience with the others, asking everybody how is it going on etc. some of them are very happy in their new family and evrything is going allright, others have more problems , n i was a little sorry of tht cuz everything's allright for me here ...but it was very great talk with them bout dutch people,cuz we could note the same things about them,for ex that they very rarely touch you, so everybody was touching eachother the most he could , cuz we really miss tht, n it was very funny looking everybody embracing sombody else :)
than i could also notice that it was harder than the last time speaking so many lenguages all together, maybe this is because last time i had a week to get used to,but it was so confusing for my brain, for ex it was me and flavia n we were speaking italian , than came Camila , so we had to speak spanish, than came Rafael so we had to speak english, then we went to the restaurant and we had to speak french, than people was talking us in dutch ... oh my god!!!! and sometimes u didn't remember one word in english n u could say it in spanish or oh wht the hell...my head was going to kill me,it was like: y r u doin it to my???wht's wrong with me???
when we finished with travel active i went back in hoorn n thn i went to david & medy's party,we were something like 12 people n we went at the bowling :) i was very bad in it :S,but it was rather funny,than we went at medy's home and we gave them our presents, and it was very funny cuz we  hided their presents in the living room n they had to looking for them ,than they explaned me tht it's not very usual, dutch people usually do it with young children :) an in the end we sleept over medy :)
week 8:
it was quite a chilling week, the goal of the week was improoving my dutch n shift to another metod: not studyng anymore dutch grammar in class, but try to follow the lessons even tought i can't get so much...
i did it, n in some class it was preatty good, also if it was very very tiring, every break i was so tired, infact i m going bed earlier, but it doesn't metter i really wanna learn this dutch!!!
in the end yesterday i hanged out with josef :) very relaxing weekend i suppose.
well next week i m going 9 days in amsterdam (fall holidays) n i m looking forward tht moment :)
a kiss to everybody 
       Allee