finally back

here i am, back in italy.
i m sitting in my class, with my classmates, just chilling during our training.
on sunday morning i' m gonna leave with my classmates, we're gonna go to Cefalu( tht 's an island in Sicily), i'm very happy of that, i've been missing them so much!!! and everything is so weird since i m here. the first week was the hardest one, i was ready, i knew it was hard, but i didn't expect that much!!! everything was different just being the same. my friends, my family, y city, how can it be everything so different? the second week as getting better, but then i felt sick!!!WTF!!!! finally now i got back to school and i m really loocking forward to leave, i really need sometime to think bout everything.
since i m here i m not been talking with my hosting family that much, i really miss them, really bad, but that's so weird talk to them, thiking hat we're so far away eachother, we used to get up together, get breakfast together, spend the whole day together, and now i  here , they r there, in their practice, just working, and i know tht it's not that easy to go there to meeting up. i wish it was easyer.my hosting family called me last week , it was very exciting, i was very happy of that, but i was also very sick, so i couldn't talk that much,than during the week i called Anique ( my sista) we talked a little, but it was even more weird, i had so much  to tell to her, but talking just by a screem can be very annoyng,that was terribly hard.
day by day everything is more confused in my mind, i m really confused bout everything, i dunno who i am anymore, i don't know what i like anymore. at first in holland i tought i would have learnt to better understand myself, i tought after holland everything would have been easyer, but that's not like that!! i had to learn to know myself, there i doscovered a new myself, and now i gotta get used to be here again, but now it's a new me, and i dunno how can it fit.
CEFALU HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!